Monday, November 9, 2009

HateAll.

These eyes will see through you,
will bleed through you,
yet i'll use thine eyes to see the truth.

This fight, is only mine,
as I step pass the line.
This is the word that breeds,
and here is the fall that shines.
The sacrifice of blood is what I'll keep.
Where all you haters sink, I shall feed.

Don't try to escape the struggle,
for all that culminates for tomorrow.
This is the world that lies,
a world where the fakes say goodbye.
The words is final as I seal my lips,
as I know the only thing that stays is me.

I am now the defined,
the hated and the unsuppressed.

Can this moment pay off?
With all the knifes in my back?
Yet what was done was done so sweetly,
I guess it has been decided,
and the only three words I have to say to you are
Fuck you now.


Saturday, October 31, 2009

TheWordsAreSpoken.

A lingering thought through contentment,
words slip from the bottom lip.
Silence is not always golden,
actions that sashayed with the hips.

Violet vases all around,
love on its broken glass.
Crimson is not the word you chose to speak,
but murmurs of vapour from crass to class.

On angel's wings we once believed,
yet things are too far too hard.
Those were the belongings we chose to keep,
so the past shall stay the past.

Friday, September 25, 2009

100.

This is the end,
ye devils say.
This is when I know i'll be slayed.

Sin the first,
thus for the sin again,
torn in tethers by thy powers insane.

Call the crime,
henceforth cry by the line,
now's the first as the last one is framed.

Tripping on monologues,
voices in my head,
is this a beginning of the death of my name?

Saturday, September 12, 2009

TheSearch.

Counting days and imagining numbers,
and the veins of my eyes with an outcry of blood.
I breathed in too hard,
too deep as I draw blanks,
I forgot to breathe out.

Entering the gates that beckon,
visionaries, missionaries speak.
They tell you of the life you once lived,
raving in the moment,
dying for the latter.

Spiraling downwards to a perception of life,
fire at my feet.
He proclaims that this is the first,
the course of the origin,
like the finest steel breeds from fire.
I stood in disillusionment.

They throw me up,
force feeding me the mouth of the recipient.
I return to despair.
Breathing out,
bleeding in,
bleeding out.

Numb to the sense,
numb to perceive,
as every bone crackled at me.
Thus the question.
Why am I still alive?

n-joi

Monday, August 31, 2009

Imagine.Thoughts.

The little things,
like a smile, or a wave of a hand,
sweet thoughts,
its ecstasy that runs in my brain,
like the wind from the ceiling fan.

I could deal with a little silliness,
I could sit down and whine,
drink some sweet honey,
and munch on nectarines,
yes nectarines are fine.

If the night permits,
i'll rip out a little star,
and if it be bright enough,
if it be kind,
you can use your camera,
and compare it with your smile that shines.

You can play the piano,
and i'll strum my guitar,
we'll compose our thoughts together,
maybe pen a word or two,
maybe it'll last forever,
just me and you.

So let it all go now,
the worries and the frown,
close your eyes for this one moment,
but don't look down.

Just smile.

n-joi

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

FullStop.

A levels are a bitch.

Monday, August 17, 2009

TheySaidIt.

If breathing is the obstacle,
then life is but death.
If nothing is but a term,
then something is but imprisonment.
If being is choosing to achieve,
then seeing is choosing to go on.
But when living is the only choice,
then we fall to forever.